♥ Faith.

If only you know.

I stayed up to 3AM just so I could accompany you online.
Yet when I asked you why you stayed up till so late, you ignored me.

I don’t know why you want to make this so hard.

We’re both at the losing ends, in the end.

You asked me if I want you to call me every night. What am I supposed to say? Yes, because I miss you and I really want to hear your voice and know that you’re okay, or No, because I somehow know it will be an obligation to you, and you won’t even tell me things that are happening in your life?

So, I said no.

For the first time in so long I chose what’s right.

And I know I will miss you badly. It hurts so much even the moment I put down the phone, the moment you hung up on me, that when I breathe I can feel it, that sensation in my chest, where my heart is…

But I love you. And you told me once that it doesn’t matter where we are, as long as we’re together.

We aren’t. But it doesn’t matter now.

To you, maybe. Not to me. It still hurts, no matter how hard I try, how happy I seem to be.

If only you know.